SUFFER...

granny, how are u now???
i knw u are suffering for the illness n i can't do anythings,
the doctor told us is time to let u knw the truth but we can't do it,
maybe because of our selfishness,
maybe we afraid to lose u when u knw the truth,
that day when i went back,
what i had seen was made me very sad,
u can't even walk well, can't even eat well, sleep well...
i really sad when i saw it,
mum also sad n can't sleep well,
as the daughter to my mum n grandchild for granny...
i pretend like nothing happen,
because i can't let both of the person i care knw i'm also sad,
but i really can stand it in the night time,
i cried many times in the midnight,
it is the only way i can release my emotion,
there is many things i need 2 do but i put it away,
i really afraid that any moment from now there is bad news from there,
i afraid that i can't stand for any bad news,
maybe i'll crazy o mad,
i knw i'm abnormal now....
plz god...plz bleesed my granny to live longer for my selfishness,
plz let me complete what i need to do first,
i really can stand for it.....
plz.....GOD!!! :(