SORRY...

i knw i always dominated the people,
i'm sorry for this....
i knw i always makes people hate at me,
i'm sorry, frens...
sorry for everythings i had done,
sorry....

SUFFER...

granny, how are u now???
i knw u are suffering for the illness n i can't do anythings,
the doctor told us is time to let u knw the truth but we can't do it,
maybe because of our selfishness,
maybe we afraid to lose u when u knw the truth,
that day when i went back,
what i had seen was made me very sad,
u can't even walk well, can't even eat well, sleep well...
i really sad when i saw it,
mum also sad n can't sleep well,
as the daughter to my mum n grandchild for granny...
i pretend like nothing happen,
because i can't let both of the person i care knw i'm also sad,
but i really can stand it in the night time,
i cried many times in the midnight,
it is the only way i can release my emotion,
there is many things i need 2 do but i put it away,
i really afraid that any moment from now there is bad news from there,
i afraid that i can't stand for any bad news,
maybe i'll crazy o mad,
i knw i'm abnormal now....
plz god...plz bleesed my granny to live longer for my selfishness,
plz let me complete what i need to do first,
i really can stand for it.....
plz.....GOD!!! :(

my uni life...

this is the 4th semester in utm already...quite like the life in here, can learn many things.
must be independent, everythings need to do on my own but i like it.
the most happy thing that i had in here is that i 'earned' the friendship. i like to be with my roomate bcoz she always feel happy n makes the people around her also very happy. we like to share all the things together, we even like to cook delicious food in our room...haha!!! but is illegal one lah...haha!!!
i very enjoy the life, this is a very different experience from staying in my home with my parents!!! (",)